So, this is going to be incredibly hard to write, but I’ve kept this bottled up for so long and I feel like I’m completely drowning.
I’m a 19-year-old guy, 5’5” tall, and weigh 110 lbs. Honestly? I feel completely invisible, or worse, like pure oxygen. I don’t have a life, and the truth is, I don’t even know how to begin having one. It feels like everyone around me treats me horribly, and no matter how hard I try to stand up for myself or just fit in, I can never get others to show me basic human respect. Constant rejection and cruelty have completely destroyed my self-confidence, leaving me with such extreme social anxiety that just the thought of stepping outside or interacting with people makes my chest tight.
I simply can’t function socially anymore. I don’t know how to talk to people my own age because every time I’ve tried, it feels like they look down on me or treat me with pure malice. It’s a vicious cycle—the more badly I’m treated, the more I withdraw, and the lonelier I get.
I’ve finally reached my absolute limit. I can’t take this constant pain anymore. I don’t think I’ve ever been this close to what you know because, honestly, it feels impossible to see a future where it’s worth living like this. I am completely desperate, and the weight of my reality is crushing me. To make things worse, I haven’t even finished high school yet, I have zero friends to turn to, and I literally have no social life whatsoever. I am entirely on my own.
I just needed to vent about the roots of this deep depression—the kind that leaves me completely overwhelmed, crying for hours on end every single day, wondering what I did to deserve this.
If you read all of this, thank you so much for taking the time to listen to someone who feels completely insignificant to the rest of the world.
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