M21 been togheter with my gf F21 for 4 years and she never really orgasms. I tried everything, i was dominant like she asked I lasted 40 minutes with the same pace I tried every position and long foreplay on top of that but nothing works.
Now what rubs me the wrong way is how insecure this is making me. I keep on thinking how another guy could satisfy her more than me and it ruins my whole day and lately i had problems getting erections. FYI we were both virgins and never had any partners before and learned stuff with each other.
I remembered she said like 2 years ago when I asked her if she is satisfied with my size and she said she could take a bigger one but now she says it’s perfect as it is even though I doubt that. And I am hopefully not extremely small as I am 5.51inch long and 2.24inch thick.
I even spent a good amount of money on toys that she doesn’t even use and only uses them when I suggest it, and to be fair she did orgasm with a wand while performing oral on me but it wasn’t something wow.
She usually isn’t a sexual person and usually just tells me she gets off fast with the shower head only and it’s on piss porn but she isn’t down to do any of that irl aș it’s unsanitary. That’s the only type of category she pretty much watches also.
I don’t know what to do, my insecurities are killing me and my mood for the whole day so often. I feel weak and useless and what’s worse than that is that I know she would’ve love to have a taller bf but she just has me 5’8 and she being 5’6 and I’m saying this because she said something along the lines in an argument and she was honest about it after in a talk.
And if any of you say why don’t I bring this up to her she would just say something like “no that’s not true, i love u as u are” and so on.
I cannot brake up with her either as I live alone since I moved out and broke contact off with my toxic family and I also got really attached to her in a toxic way and to be honest the spark isn’t there anymore so much but borderline makes it harder to be less attached to her.
If u read this till the end thank you and I hope for a friendly tip.
