Throughout my childhood, my dad had an extra interest to my penis. At least that is how I feel now. Through many stuff and a general lack of boundary setting about my body, I feel like he used every opportunity to maximize my exposure to himself.
I bathed with him until seven and showered with him until nine. The baths lasted around three hours and the showers lasted around 45 minutes each, which I believe is longer than usual. After I started showering alone, he kept seeing my naked body through “growth checks” of my penis until thirteen, where he made me pull it (or briefly touched it himself) to see if it’s “getting bigger as it should”. I never had a medical condition that would make this necessary. I also remember him making brief and random but frequent comments about my penis throughout my childhood.
A few months ago, when I was 18, I saw him watching my childhood videos on the living room TV. When I looked at the screen he said “Look your peepee is out” and laughed. It was just a video of me playing in the little pool naked as a baby, but his comment didn’t make me feel comfortable at all.
Do you think I’m exaggerating normal stuff, or is there actually something off with him? The latest video interaction probably sounds innocent too, but I really doubt it.
