I was caught masturbating…

I was caught masturbating last night after some fun screen time.

Actually I got caught in the clean up it was a heavy load 😬.

I have been in a deadbedroom for years now. As a HLM it’s really hard. Therapists have been suggested, but I don’t know if anything would change.

Open marriage I don’t think would fly. My wife though is my best friend, we are just no longer lovers. I won’t leave but I miss feeling desired wanted and touched. I won’t leave her, as a 50 yr old man is this what I’m stuck with?